Now this is incredible. I can't even imagine the kind of will power that this would take. I had trouble poking myself in the finger with a tiny lancet for a blood typing lab in high school, and here is this lady giving herself a succesful C-section. It defies comprehension. She's now on the list of people whose hands I would like to shake.
Being on campus in the summer is very different. Especially this summer, with the new buildings being started and so on. Some examples of the differences: All the rooms in the dorms are emptied out and thoroughly cleaned, so when going to and from my room, I have to dodge mattresses, dressers, and the occasional cleaning lady. Outside the dorm, they've been cutting down some trees, and trimming the branches off of others. It's loud and annoying. At work, the student email server goes down for hours at a time, but there are no angry calls, and we don't have to explain that yes, we know it's down, and yes, we're fixing it as fast as we can, and yes, your bitching at us will only make it take longer. Ah yes, it's great. The cafeteria is officially closed now, so I need to fend for myself 3 meals a day. Luckily, I have enough ramen to feed an Ethiopian village for a month. Or me for a week. I should probably get more food. Other changes on campus: the construction of the new classroom buildings is a big deal, of course. The bit of road in front of Central Hall is closed for at least 18 months, so that will suck when school starts and I'm living in the house. I'll have to walk around the whole construction zone.
I think that no matter what happens to be going on in my life, I'll find something to worry about. When school is in, I worry about the reading I'm not doing, the notes I'm not taking, and the papers I'm not writing. I worry about them, but I don't do them. Now that school is out, and I really have no responsibilities except those which I place on myself, I still feel anxious about all the things that I told myself I would do, but haven't yet. I told myself that I would read a lot of books, and rewrite the ffsearch frontend. Instead, I browse the internet, bored to death, or I play video games which really hold no interest to me at all. And while I do these things, in the back of my mind I have this nagging feeling that I should be doing something else. When I give it any thought, I realize that I should be reading or coding or otherwise expanding my mind. But I keep doing all this pointless shit. Why? I'm so confused. And confusing. Oh well. I'll start all that stuff tomorrow.
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